Thursday, November 06, 2003

溫柔 (五月天)

走在風中 今天陽光 突然好溫柔
天的溫柔 地的溫柔 像你抱著我
然後發現 你的改變 孤單的今後
如果冷 該怎麼渡過
天邊風光 身邊的我 都不在你眼中
你的眼中 藏著什麼 我從來都不懂
沒有關係 你的世界 就讓你擁有
不打擾是我的溫柔
不知道 不明了 不想要 為什麼 我的心
明明是想靠近 卻孤單到黎明
不知道 不明了 不想要 為什麼 我的心
那愛情的綺麗 總是在孤單里
再把我的最好的愛給你
不知不覺 不情不愿 又到巷子口
我沒有哭 也沒有笑 因為這是夢
沒有預兆 沒有理由 你真的都說過
如果有就讓你自由 自由 這是我的溫柔

Tenderness ( Mayday)

Walk in the wind, today's sunlight, a sudden tenderness
The sky's tenderness, the earth's tenderness, like you embracing me
And then to discover you've changed, I'm alone from now on
How would I go on if it gets cold?
The horizon's light, I'm at your side but not even in your eyes
What are your eyes hiding? I have never understood
It doesn't matter, I'll let you have your own world
Not disturbing you is my tenderness
I don't know, don't understand, don't want, why, my heart
Obviously it wants intimacy, yet I'm lonely until dawn
I don't know, don't understand, don't want, why, my heart
That love's beauty is always all alone
I'll give you my best love again
Unwittingly, unwillingly, I'm at the the entrance of this alley again
I haven't cried, yet haven't laughed, because this is a dream
There was no sign, no reason, you've really said it all
If I gave you freedom ~freedom~ that would be my tenderness

~ ~ ~

now i'm being ignored
just great
maybe it make me think lessor of a person than i think she is
after all it's all in my head
can't be that bad right?

my fren S told me that i have got to love myself before i can love someone
hmmm.........

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

I Can't Make You Love Me lyrics - George Michael

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Oh yeah
Someone's gonna love me



Move on man, move on
guess i have to move on now.
there's no way that i can change myself or what she thinks about me.
i hope i learn from this hurt. cos it really does cut deep.
Sometimes i wonder, if He is taunting me.
She's right infront of me, but there's nothing i can do.
so helpless, so trapped, so hopeless.

I've enuff of this bullshit.
No one's gonna cause me shit like this anymore.
No one's gonna come into my life and mess me no more.
They all can bugger off.
And leave me alone to find my own peace.
The peace within.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

More Shit Happens!!!

And i thought my blog would have died.
Another month into SMU, and shit is still happening to me.
I just got my hopes crushed by my crush. Found out last night that the feeling isn't quite mutual. heh what else is new?
All that waiting for her to come online, pineing for her, trying to mix with her people and all that thinking of what to say to her.... all amounts to nothing.

a pal in smu whom, i'll call L offered the best advice to me. I was being superficial and i'm jumping right into it. Hmm looks like i have lots to learn.... still.

feeling rotten and empty.... quite a change from having internal conflicts that were eating me up....
at least now i know i have to let go.
Maybe its better this way. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

What the heck? who needs this shit anyway? (warning! self denial mode activated!)

I hope this thing for her dies soon... and save myself from further embarassment.

Alone again naturally.

P.S i made the mistake of asking her out. there was no reply.
Great.
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Wassup?
First entry.... i've always thought that it was silly to blog but look what peer pressure did to me! All u Pig Pals Dog Friends ( chinese loosely translated ).

Oh well. gotta get back to my financial acctg class now. later.