More Shit Happens!!!

And i thought my blog would have died.
Another month into SMU, and shit is still happening to me.
I just got my hopes crushed by my crush. Found out last night that the feeling isn't quite mutual. heh what else is new?
All that waiting for her to come online, pineing for her, trying to mix with her people and all that thinking of what to say to her.... all amounts to nothing.

a pal in smu whom, i'll call L offered the best advice to me. I was being superficial and i'm jumping right into it. Hmm looks like i have lots to learn.... still.

feeling rotten and empty.... quite a change from having internal conflicts that were eating me up....
at least now i know i have to let go.
Maybe its better this way. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

What the heck? who needs this shit anyway? (warning! self denial mode activated!)

I hope this thing for her dies soon... and save myself from further embarassment.

Alone again naturally.

P.S i made the mistake of asking her out. there was no reply.
Great.
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL