Top Of the World , Over the Moon
Wed 28/02
Asked her if i cld call her after telling her that i feel like a madman talking to myself when i'm chatting online with her. "sure" she said. She said she'd call instead. 49mins of bliss. haha tokked much abt nothing, NS, bikes, askin me to perform a song for her after hearing i preformed in pri sch and bmt, she called me, pretending to be a starhub person telling me my line's gonna be cut off. 49 mins and i forgot my mission: ask her when is my treat gonna be.... *shakes head
well. hope my song's nearer to perfection so that i can play to her on v dae/ windsurf day. how am i gonna pull her aside, and gather all that guts? and half a dozen roses..... hope i dun cop out man......
anyway, tokking to her gives me such a happy vibe. grinning like an idiot from ear to ear. Any ideas people? help!!!!
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
Friday Patron's Day
Took part in the tug-of-war for both the Mens and Mixed categories. Represented the Rugby team and kicked the Changi Boys' ass twice. Guess who made up the Changi Boys? Them boys from Hendon Camp. That felt better then the prize money of $20 bucks each. My frens and i also joined in as team "Faggots" in the mixed category. we won too. $40 bucks! money for a helmet hahahah. she had a lil performance with some band, playing some shaker thingy. she looked damn sweet lah in white and all.
After that i had some prize giving ceremony, poured champagne into a trophy and drank from it haha macam world cup. Then i had to run around with two helium ballons as my tits, a helmet over my face (full-faced) and a styrofaom guitar (from a float competition) and ran ard like an idiot. in front of her too. hahah
there was a foam party without alcohol went in with frens but she didn't come in cos she was in white... haizz
Saturday Godsis' BBQ
had a bbq, godsis tried to hook me up with this chick doing some occupational therapy thingy. was too shy to talk to her. she came up to me to talk. but it was damn wierd whenur church frens , godparents and godsis are egging u on. but really, i was just hooked onto someone.damn.
Sunday Flea Market in skool
she was there but i had already left. was raising fund to start the catholic society in skool. oh well. talked to her at night (online) i asked if i cld call her, she said no. haiz.
Monday
sat beside her in the library. talked to her for a while. abt bikes, abt her new laptop. touched her head while talking.... where did the balls come from man? i sure wished they came more often.
Took part in the tug-of-war for both the Mens and Mixed categories. Represented the Rugby team and kicked the Changi Boys' ass twice. Guess who made up the Changi Boys? Them boys from Hendon Camp. That felt better then the prize money of $20 bucks each. My frens and i also joined in as team "Faggots" in the mixed category. we won too. $40 bucks! money for a helmet hahahah. she had a lil performance with some band, playing some shaker thingy. she looked damn sweet lah in white and all.
After that i had some prize giving ceremony, poured champagne into a trophy and drank from it haha macam world cup. Then i had to run around with two helium ballons as my tits, a helmet over my face (full-faced) and a styrofaom guitar (from a float competition) and ran ard like an idiot. in front of her too. hahah
there was a foam party without alcohol went in with frens but she didn't come in cos she was in white... haizz
Saturday Godsis' BBQ
had a bbq, godsis tried to hook me up with this chick doing some occupational therapy thingy. was too shy to talk to her. she came up to me to talk. but it was damn wierd whenur church frens , godparents and godsis are egging u on. but really, i was just hooked onto someone.damn.
Sunday Flea Market in skool
she was there but i had already left. was raising fund to start the catholic society in skool. oh well. talked to her at night (online) i asked if i cld call her, she said no. haiz.
Monday
sat beside her in the library. talked to her for a while. abt bikes, abt her new laptop. touched her head while talking.... where did the balls come from man? i sure wished they came more often.
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
Episode X : A New Hope?
Called her for the first time today. was after my Debrief for the Adventure Jamboree ( some one day camp for JC ppl).
It rang like 5 times then i hung up (Talk abt hum chee). She called back. She said i wasn't doing a good job disturbing her. (I told her i would call her instead of SMS-ing her cos she takes too long to reply and to disturb her from her sleep). Talked a lil kok. Wasn't much but was happy. She was like already at the busstop, but i din have a chance to talk to her cos my bus was here.
Right now i'm tearing the skin of my fingers trying to learn to play the guitar. (all because she thought some guys who preformed at the lobby of the bus Block were cool) Anyway it's another skill that i shd have picked up to impress them gals. That and cooking.
I feel a lil hopeful now but will she avoid me again? A close fren of hers told me that she was afraid to be left alone with me last year when i was mounting my attack.... think i have to stop behaving like an Infantryman and quit "charging"......
Called her for the first time today. was after my Debrief for the Adventure Jamboree ( some one day camp for JC ppl).
It rang like 5 times then i hung up (Talk abt hum chee). She called back. She said i wasn't doing a good job disturbing her. (I told her i would call her instead of SMS-ing her cos she takes too long to reply and to disturb her from her sleep). Talked a lil kok. Wasn't much but was happy. She was like already at the busstop, but i din have a chance to talk to her cos my bus was here.
Right now i'm tearing the skin of my fingers trying to learn to play the guitar. (all because she thought some guys who preformed at the lobby of the bus Block were cool) Anyway it's another skill that i shd have picked up to impress them gals. That and cooking.
I feel a lil hopeful now but will she avoid me again? A close fren of hers told me that she was afraid to be left alone with me last year when i was mounting my attack.... think i have to stop behaving like an Infantryman and quit "charging"......
Thursday, January 08, 2004
High and Dry
Blog was dead for a long time. I've finally decided to update it after almost all of Membas have a blog now.
The vacation was a blast. althogh i didn't do much.
Main highlights of the vacation:
1. Beach party at an undisclosed location. This time Membas ( yes, all of us finally) had swollenblink and Mr Army Regular. Was damn drunk, puked like 3 times. After 5 years of not puking, i realised why i dun drink so much.
2. Went to phuture a few times. She was there too once, came late, left early. drank coke. hated my Kilkenny. But she looked fabulous!!! So much for forgetting abt her. It's coming back to haunt me. Will it ever go away?
3. Christmas was boring. Went to queensway to finally get my engineered jeans. went home for dinner with the folks. then to church. saw couples everywhere. made me feel even worse, more aware of my loneliness. The void within was slowly growing.
4. went to a fren's place for a christmas gathering. saw Her again. Head over heels again. she was beside me for a brief period of 5 minutes cause i was late for the lunch thingy. A fren who knows abt my thing for Her said we looked compatible. More wishful thoughts.....
5. Asked her out on new year's eve. was already out with frens. she mentioned abt remembering abt a treat she was suppossed to give me. she kinda told me to set the date. which i did. was so excited and hopeful. FRI 12pm in town, i said. Alas, she's going back to school on that day and she said she'll call me again. Is she just jokin or what? It hurts to fall from such a height. But i'll keep climbing up and falling if she'll let me in.........
I wonder how long will she haunt me? I dun wanna scare her off and i wanna be frens. But the damn emotions keep coming in. I keep telling myself to be casual and chill. But i can't seem to. It seems hopeless, knowing she doesn't want a relationship.
What's a guy like me to do?
Blog was dead for a long time. I've finally decided to update it after almost all of Membas have a blog now.
The vacation was a blast. althogh i didn't do much.
Main highlights of the vacation:
1. Beach party at an undisclosed location. This time Membas ( yes, all of us finally) had swollenblink and Mr Army Regular. Was damn drunk, puked like 3 times. After 5 years of not puking, i realised why i dun drink so much.
2. Went to phuture a few times. She was there too once, came late, left early. drank coke. hated my Kilkenny. But she looked fabulous!!! So much for forgetting abt her. It's coming back to haunt me. Will it ever go away?
3. Christmas was boring. Went to queensway to finally get my engineered jeans. went home for dinner with the folks. then to church. saw couples everywhere. made me feel even worse, more aware of my loneliness. The void within was slowly growing.
4. went to a fren's place for a christmas gathering. saw Her again. Head over heels again. she was beside me for a brief period of 5 minutes cause i was late for the lunch thingy. A fren who knows abt my thing for Her said we looked compatible. More wishful thoughts.....
5. Asked her out on new year's eve. was already out with frens. she mentioned abt remembering abt a treat she was suppossed to give me. she kinda told me to set the date. which i did. was so excited and hopeful. FRI 12pm in town, i said. Alas, she's going back to school on that day and she said she'll call me again. Is she just jokin or what? It hurts to fall from such a height. But i'll keep climbing up and falling if she'll let me in.........
I wonder how long will she haunt me? I dun wanna scare her off and i wanna be frens. But the damn emotions keep coming in. I keep telling myself to be casual and chill. But i can't seem to. It seems hopeless, knowing she doesn't want a relationship.
What's a guy like me to do?
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