High and Dry

Blog was dead for a long time. I've finally decided to update it after almost all of Membas have a blog now.
The vacation was a blast. althogh i didn't do much.

Main highlights of the vacation:

1. Beach party at an undisclosed location. This time Membas ( yes, all of us finally) had swollenblink and Mr Army Regular. Was damn drunk, puked like 3 times. After 5 years of not puking, i realised why i dun drink so much.

2. Went to phuture a few times. She was there too once, came late, left early. drank coke. hated my Kilkenny. But she looked fabulous!!! So much for forgetting abt her. It's coming back to haunt me. Will it ever go away?

3. Christmas was boring. Went to queensway to finally get my engineered jeans. went home for dinner with the folks. then to church. saw couples everywhere. made me feel even worse, more aware of my loneliness. The void within was slowly growing.

4. went to a fren's place for a christmas gathering. saw Her again. Head over heels again. she was beside me for a brief period of 5 minutes cause i was late for the lunch thingy. A fren who knows abt my thing for Her said we looked compatible. More wishful thoughts.....

5. Asked her out on new year's eve. was already out with frens. she mentioned abt remembering abt a treat she was suppossed to give me. she kinda told me to set the date. which i did. was so excited and hopeful. FRI 12pm in town, i said. Alas, she's going back to school on that day and she said she'll call me again. Is she just jokin or what? It hurts to fall from such a height. But i'll keep climbing up and falling if she'll let me in.........


I wonder how long will she haunt me? I dun wanna scare her off and i wanna be frens. But the damn emotions keep coming in. I keep telling myself to be casual and chill. But i can't seem to. It seems hopeless, knowing she doesn't want a relationship.

What's a guy like me to do?