Resurrection

This blog has been dead for more than a year.
Many things have happened since.
A trip to KL for a month for work/fun, a whirlwind romance which made me rush all the way back to see a certain gal during the weekends of that particular month. A friendship that blossomed into a relationship. A relationship that failed because of "fundamental differences".

In a way, I have no more faith nor belief in this thing called "love" anymore. It has become some sort of a business deal. Security and collaterals are needed for exchange of "feelings/emotions/love". Gone are the days when love was unconditional. Its come to a point where its: "Dude, u aint got the drive for the finer things in life. i want the finer things in life. Its not gonna work out. Sorry."


Raw.
I watch the world with a new cynical eye,
i once thought without being loved i would die,
it hurts me so but i refuse to cry
if i could quote radiohead "Dun leave me high and dry".

Perhaps i ask too much from a girl,
to accept me as who i am as our story unfurls,
Alas it aint simple, i'm tangled in the curls
just me and my empty lil world.

So prove me wrong God, I'll try to trust in you
that the right one will come and make my heart feel new
but dun give me temporary fixes of synthetic romance
no more hurt i can take, so i'll build my fence.