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Sometimes i wonder, if i ever do learn from my mistakes. It seems that the kind of gals i "fall" for, come from a particular category (according to my friend: qian1 jin1 xiao2 jie3). And i always fall too fast. and same old same old: she's not as into me as i am into her....eg 15 hour lag time to reply to an sms.....(groans) I wish i could buy myself a set of Brembo brake calipers and HEL steel braided brake hoses to stop myself emotionally. Guess that explains why i am so obsessed with modification of stuff - cos i can't modify my own being!

I've got to get a grip on myself, seriously be self-sufficient and enjoy my own company (as whack as that sounds). These attractions should just be attractions, and i should not act on these attractions. Until i have sorted myself out. I.E financially, spiritually and academically!

I just wish harmless attractions would just.....stay the way they are: HARMLESS attractions. Meanwhile i gotta understand why i attract the wrong kind of attention: the friend of an ex-chase, the sister of that same ex-chase have something on for me! Maybe my wires and my fate paths are just crossed and messy. sheesh.